Regrouping

After 4 days off and playing tour guide to my brother and his family, I'm ready to get back in the groove. I've actually missed the groove a lot (although I did enjoy the cinnamon roll, Haagen-Dazs and a few other goodies being out of the groove entailed). I especially missed the exercise routine. It used to be a good week when I exercised 3 times a week. Now it's more like 6 and usually 7, including yoga on Saturday, that I'm doing some sort of physical activity.

It came about gradually and I'm not saying I love exercising suddenly, but I do miss it when I haven't done it. My body and mind know the difference.

The past few months with my online workout coach have made a world of difference. I've tried things I never would have done on my own and the variation and combinations have made a world of difference. I can literally see my body changing before my very eyes. BOWC (before online workout coach) I thought I didn't have much control after a certain point, about my weight or what my body looked like, but after 5 solid months of working out regularly, I know that's a lie I told myself. 10.5 pounds, 15 inches, and one or two sizes later and I know the truth. The limits are in my mind. And I'm excited to keep pushing forward to see what new barriers I can push through next.

For example: when I began this journey I couldn't do push ups. Not one single push up for 2 months. But my coach forced me to keep trying and now, after much practice and frustration, I can do 3 sets of 10 push ups. Not too shabby!

I don't mean to brag, but I'm in awe of what I've been able to achieve. At the beginning I absolutely dreaded each workout. But I did it anyway, knowing someone was going to look at the results at the end of the week. Now, I don't dread the workouts but I still sometimes drag my feet getting to the gym. Despite the fact that I see results. Despite the fact that I miss it when I don't exercise. For some reason it's still an uphill challenge. But the habit gets easier every day. Every day I try to find new motivation and push through and see where my body can go next. It's exciting and I'm proud of myself. Even if it does come across as bragging.

New Leaf?

This poor blog needs help. Maybe more focus? Maybe less concern about putting myself out there? Here's a public declaration that I'm planning to step it up (putting it out there could only help right?).

The point of this blog is to document a life that isn't really witnessed by anyone other than the person living it, yet if I don't do any documenting it doesn't do me or anyone else much good.

But I often hesitate to write because the things I want to write about couldn't possibly be of any interest to anyone else. And that's the point. So I'm changing the approach. No topic is too boring, selfish, mundane. Who knows where it will go in the future but for now my goal is just to get in the habit of documenting this little life of mine.